Memories

I was in class...trying concentrate on what the lecturer is saying...but the projector isn't working so it's kinda boring...so I decided to sent a msg to my friend and see if we could chat a little...

There I was...thinking I was keying in my friend's number...and before I knew it...Rowena's number was in the 'send to:' spot...I shook it off...and tried to key in my friend's number again...the same thing happened...

I don't know what's happening...I don't even know what I was doing until I finished typing her numbers...I didn't even noticed until the last second...

That really ruined my otherwise ordinarily boring day...

I miss her...it's only been more or less a month since I told myself I don't wanna have anything to do with her anymore...and it feels like it's been half a year...I miss her badly...but the missing ends here...all I'll ever do is miss her...I will not break the ice no more...I'm sick of it...

The best way to describe my feelings are probably these...

I've put my trust in you,
Pushed as far as I can go,
and for all this,
There's only one thing you should know.
I've tried so hard, and got so far,
But in the end, it doesn't even matter,
I had to fall to lose it all,
But in the end,
IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER

Fix you

When you try your best but you don't succeed,
When you get what you want but not what you need,
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep,
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face,
When you lose something you can't replace,
When you love someone but it goes to waste,
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home,
and ignite your bones,
and I will try to fix you.

And high up above or down below,
When you're too in love to let it go,
But if you never try then you'll never know,
Just what you're worth.

Lights will guide you home,
and ignite your bones,
and I will try to fix you.

Tears stream, down your face,
When you lose something you cannot replace,
Tears stream, down your face and ahhhh...

Tears stream, down your face,
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes,
Tears stream, down your face and ahhhh...

Lights will guide you home,
and ignite your bones,
and I will try to fix you.

Disappointed

So I guess this is really just my luck...That everytime I fall in love...I had to fall out of love the most heart-breaking way anyone can possibly imagine...It's so sad and pathetic that I don't even want to say it a second time...

This is kinda the 1st time I ever felt this way about anyone...that bitter-sweetness that is so hard to let go of...that always breaks my heart one way or the other...and someway somehow...she would always do something that makes me weak and keep hanging on to her...

Well I'm sick of it...so sick and tired of it...I don't care anymore...Forgetting that she's probably the best and worst thing that has ever happened to me is not going to be easy but I don't care anymore...This is torture...I just can't take it anymore...This is really Goodbye

I really wish I could just talk to her one last time...just so I could hear her sweet voice and watch that beautiful smile of hers...I miss her greatly...but in the end...

What's The Point?

Fooled

It's been a while since I last updated my blog...Most probably cause of my damned PC and modem...the modem's fried for one...and now I can't even turn on my PC...guess it's really time to buy a new one...been upgrading this one...and believe me...it's really outdated...

So I've been listening to alot of old musics lately...well not exactly old but it's those dated a few years back...the most recent would be Fall Out Boys' most recent album 'Infinity on High'...I have to admit...it's good music to the ears...they rock good...heh...besides them would be Coldplay's 'X&Y'...it's real soothing and calm...love it...pretty relaxing too...

Well other than that...been watching alot of TV lately...and damn I'm really waiting for CSI next wednesday...The hunt for Sara Sidle begins...XD the season finale for last season is really a cliffhanger though...love and hate those kinda finales...you gotta admit...when you get a cliffhanger season finale...you can't stop wondering what is going happen...the anticipation could kill...but the good part is...you're definitely in for a treat the start of next season...=)

Besides that...watched The Prestige, Blood Diamond, The Illusionist, and some others that I can't really remember...

It's in The Prestige that I heard something said by one of the supporting characters that really got my attention...

After being amazed by a magician's tricks or illusions, you would want to find out the truth behind it...How do they do it? But of course you won't find it because you aren't really looking, you want to be FOOLED.

Then again I guess it really applies to real life situations...do you sometimes find yourself in a situation where you'd rather not knowing the truth about something? That you would rather be fooled?

Good start...

Well...it's been about 6 days since new year...and I have to admit...I'm already having the time of my life...Ups and downs...sadness and happiness...my life has not been this eventful since I left high skool...

1st of all...I've argued with Rowena big time during new year...to the point that I think we're over for sure...She proved me wrong...and I haven't been so happy to be proven wrong...She called me and we talked things over...gained a new level of understanding towards each other...and found out that one of our mutual 'friend' might be manipulating us against each other...won't say who...and details might be too long a story to tell...and it's private anyway...: \

I missed you so much...=(

Glad to have you back again babe...^_^

Then I went out to lepak with some old friends...Zh, Ju Anne, add Tzu Huei in it too...We were planning to go and play pool near my college...but it's closed...>_> so we had lunch at McDonald's while trying to figure out what to do next...and we ended up going to Ju Anne's place in Petaling Jaya...we just hung out there...didn't really do much other than playing with her dog...and listening to them playing piano...

Speaking of the dog...



I tamed the "BEAST" /o/

It likes me somehow...not that I even met it before...it just jumped onto my lap for no reason...but hey...what the hell...at least I have company when the 3 of them are grouping together playing "group piano"...>_> oh well...

Then we went to TS later...yes...it's there again...but just to park my car there and head over to Chow Kit...and no I'm not a "Bapa Ayam"...>_> So me and Tzu Huei followed Ju Anne to a tailor's so that she could give the tailor some materials for her upcoming cosplay...it didn't take long...only about an hour or so...then we went back to TS for dinner...Ju Anne's cousin was working there and is about to get off so she told her to come along so I could drive her home as well...yea...by now there's like 3 girls around me...lucky me.../o/ So after we had dinner...I drove them home...and that kinda sums up the day for me...except for me having my usual late night chat with Rowena on msn...=P

CHEERZ

New Year...New Life

Oh well...New Year Resolutions? I have some...1...get a face-lift and start to keep an eye on self presentation (looks)...2...get into year 1...3...get a girlfriend.../o/ barely inspiring ones...but It's a good way to start...I already got numbers 1 and 2 done...I've got myself some new glasses...I liked how it looks on me though my family's not really use to it...and of cuz...the new haircut...number one...DONE...

As for number 2 & 3...I'll need time of course...hope this year will turn out good for me...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

HOLIDAYS!!!

Well my finals have ended...not exactly on a good note since I think I'm gonna flunk my P&S again...-.- But it has ended...and I'm glad that I can finally relax again...go do my own stuff...and it's December...It's festive season...The end of a year and the coming of another...It's Christmas...My Birthday...and alot more...

Been boring my ass off lately though...been doing nothing but sitting at home...but I'm thankful for the few days that I get to hang out with my friends...My bro who just recently came back from Aus...and last but not least...my Kai Jie...^^ She is one of the truly...true friend that no one could replace despite her being in Canada for the most part of the year...=) So happy to have her around now...

Plans for the holidays? Yes I have some...1 with the utmost importance...is to have a facelift...I'm not talking about a plasitc surgery...just changing my specs and hairstyle...ESPECIALLY THE HAIR...I just realized I look like a freaking uncle that just woke up...-.- no idea why didn't I noticed that earlier...will dye it black...cuz I can't think of any other colour that would look good on me...: \ need to get it cut and styled...and need to learn how to maintain it too...as for my specs...I'm thinking between contact lenses and just new but better looking specs...I'm leaning more towards to just getting a pair of new ones for now...but I guess I'll have to make a decision soon...I'm giving myself a deadline...it will be before I meet up with Reanne AKA Sotong...Funny but I managed to ask her out after she comes back from S'pore after christmas...

Earlier today was really tiring...I didn't really do anything but yes...it's tiring...my bro and Kai Jie (they are a couple) dragged me out to church this morning...bored the heck out of me during preaching...and went to Pavilion for the 1st time...we were shopping for groceries for a fine dining dinner on Christmas Eve...One of my bro's friends who's currently studying in the art of food is gonna show us what can he really do...and will also make his signature dish...It was a bore shopping and walking around the Bukit Bintang area the whole day...but at least it's much much more better than staying at home...and I get to hang out with both my Kai Jie and my bro who I haven't seen for a very long time...

Later that night...my parents took me, my bro and Kai Jie to dinner...and we are goint to Pavilion again...-.- I'm not very keen with the idea in the 1st place...but who cares...it's just dinner...We went to this fine dining steak house which my father says you can't get better steak than here...I think I know what he means when I looked at the menu...the prices are sky high...I can only imagine how good it tastes like...But instead of ordered beef steak...I went with carbonara spaghetti...mainly cuz the price kinda turned me off...everyone else went with the steaks...I admit that I made a major mistake ordering the spaghetti...not that it's not good or anything...the spaghetti is fine...but when my mother cut me a slice of beef...and so did everyone else gave me a share...I don't even know how to descirbe the taste...it's just 'phenomenal'...and yes...that's what I told my father.../o/...heck it tastes so great that I can still smell it when I burp now...<3...kinda