Why were you running away?

I was listening to some fairly old music that my bro has collected in his car...which is now mine anyways...and I came across Hoobastank...Music's good although it gets a bit tiring towards the end...but worth listening to nonetheless...and worth listening to again...

One song that hit me in particular and made me reminisce a bit a bout her is 'Running Away'...somehow I can directly relate to the lyrics and why we weren't talking anymore and it literally describes how was it back then...I don't regret my decision of dumping this so called friendship...it just puzzles me why did I fell for her in the 1st place...and how I got blinded by love for 2 years going for a total B****...it's not because of a personal grudge I have a against her that I'm calling her that...well maybe a little...but all of my friends called her that too after they heard my sob story...

And here's the song.

-Running Away - Hoobastank-

I don't want you to give it all up
And live your own life collecting dust
And I don't want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be

And I don't want you to be by my side
And tell me that everything's alright
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you

So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?

I did enough to show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough
And when I get close you turn away,
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you

So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?



I won't bullshit you and lie that I just posted this song here for showing everyone how I feel...But I will tell you that I posted this song cause I want you to know, although I highly doubt you will drop by my blog...but whatever

That's all folks

A Foo-king long post...=O

It's been more than a month since I last updated my blog...and I have alot to type about...just didn't really have the time or just lazy to type it out when I do have the chance...but today...I feel like typing...and I'm ass free to do so...so here it is...a foo-king long post

CNY
1st and foremost is of cuz...CNY celebrations...the celebrations this year is strangely brief...we only went for 3 visitations...major ones anyway...and my father's employees (malays) left earlier than usual...well I suppose it's a good thing after the mess they left in my place...apparently most if not all of them just show up for the angpaus...all except for one uncle who's a family friend...He even helped us clean up after the mess...thx...=)

We also went back to pahang Karak for a day...and did the usual there...gamble, eat kfc, drink shandy, and last but not least...sleep my head off...it was kinda fun though...the gambling part...i was thinking...'oh well, once a year...might as well gameble bigger than my usual 1 buck per round lar'...I increased the bet to 5 bucks per round...at 1st I'm well on my way to a losing streak and alreayd lost about 15 bucks after a few rounds...but after that my luck changed...especially when we shifted to join another table...the game is blackjack...so luck plays a big part...for some reason I just started winning like mad after that...not only did i get the 15 bucks back...I even added another extra 40 to my wallet...XD

EPIC PAINTBALL MATCH
It's only like once every year that I get to play paintball...and for this year...it's only my second time...and as usual I was joining my bro and his friends for it...We spent about an hour trying to get there...and sadly...that's a chore...the paintball range is located in the ass end of nowhere somewhere in gombak...and when we finally found it...thank heavens we can finally start playing...This paintball range however is great compared to the last one...although hard to locate but there's a reason that it's in the ass end of nowhere...located at the foothills of an unknown hill to us...this place is fun with a capital F and real challenging to play in...our 1st 2 games took an average of 15 minutes to 20 minutes...which is nothing special...cuz we played in the easier course 1st...and an easier game mode too...capture the flag on a flat CQB-like ground...with covers so low that u literally have to get urself dirty just to hide...it's pretty fun...

The next one however...it's intense action...it's more stressful than fun...but of cuz if you only do it like once a year then it's great...On the last and third game we played another game mode on another course that is located on an uphill slope and has more cover...the place is also bigger...furthermore...this place requires more tactics than the one on the flat ground...those who are aobve will have a clearer view of whoever's down below...but they'll be pretty exposed most of the time...those who are down under will have better cover but will have difficulties trying to locate the enemy...and the objective? well...you and team will have to run to the middle of the place and get your flag up...then defend it for a minute...it sounds easy enough but it's not when you and ur opponents have infinite respawn and lots of pellets to spray at you...to add to our misery...the flags are very exposed and those who attempt to raise it are easy meat...so after about half and hour of running up and down the slope on a crouching position...our opponent has ran out of pellets and victory is ours...XD

(my knees were so tired that I couldn't walk right for about 2 days)

VALKYRIE
So me n Zh went to watch Valkyrie together, and I'm glad to say it's a pretty good movie...Starring Tom Cruise, it's about a plot to assasinate Adolf Hitler, the leader of the Nazi regime back in WW2...this movie is surprisingly suspenseful although we all already know the outcome of it...that the plot has failed and Hitler lives to terrorize the world for another year or so before he commits suicide when Berlin is surrounded by both the soviet union and the allied forces...and according the a little research I've done after watching the movie...the historical accuracy of this movie is amazing...compared to other movies it is perhaps one of the most accurate movie...

VALENTINE'S DAY
So not surprisingly I spent valentine's day doing nothing again...well not exactly nothing...but close...XD Me, Kenji, WZ and Zh went out to a mamak late at night and talk cock sing song till about 2am in the morning...well we don't get to do this often so wth...I did try to ask a girl out...but evidently that didn't work our too well lol...well I'm already quite used to spending Valentine's Day like this...So whatever

TODAY
I was driving myself and my bro back from a clinic from Pudu...and when we're only a few minutes away from home...I witnessed a hit and run just a car in front of me...Poor guy got hit by a car and got into the air for a fair while before hitting his head on the tarmac...and the driver just drove off...It's probably nothing more than a hit and run...but it's really sickening to see...I told my brother to stay in the car and I got down to help the poor bastard...but what's more sickening than witnessing the accident itself is...there's this bunch of people around the victim...and they aren't doing shit but look...it's only me and another malay who's trying to lift him off the tarmac and put him on the sidewalks where it's safe...until the malay shouted at them to help they just stood there and looked on...Malaysia Truly Asia...

Overall it's been quite eventful...and it's about time to start my assignments...or I risk rushing for the deadline later...

That's all folks

New Year Resolutions

I'm sure a lot of people have New Year Resolutions...I have too...Just that sometimes I tend not to take them seriously... :\ then again it's not like I have a lot of New Year Resolutions before...I'm usually the guy without plans...I just go with the flow...I'll continue to do that this year...but with a few changes in mind...

1.
(it's about a girl and it's private...and I'm sure my close friends already know what I'm gonna do with her...^^)

2.
I really need to start concentrating on my studies...the huge change in college or rather the Uni is just mind blowing...and students simply can't afford to fail subjects...cuz retaking it will cost you a fortune...which is really stupid considering the below-par education level here...I'm thinking about transferring to another college...but I'll stick around for 1 sem...then I'll make my choice later...I'll see how bad is it...

3.
This is probably the hardest and most pathetic of all...find someone new to love cuz the last one isn't really appreciating it... :\

4.(added)
Start working out and lose some weight...already on this one...=P Targeting 65kg...currently at 70kgs with an empty stomach...

That's all folks

Happy New Year =D

Well it's been a long time since I updated in here...A lot of things had happened and I feel like talking about all of them...I'll make it as brief as possible though...=D

Firstly...I took up a part time job about 2 weeks ago...but I only worked for a week...I'm to be a promoter selling men's shoes...which is quite an experience really...I never really thought that I'm not bad of a promoter...=) I'm one of the top sellers of my designated booth...XD BUT...It's hard labor really...Standing 10 hours a day ain't exactly fun...though it would be much better if we were indeed busy...The 1st few days is quite busy...so I guess I had a good start...but towards the end of the week it gets boring...and I took a day off cuz I'm simply too exhausted to work the other day...Overall it was quite an experience to have that job...but it's over now...so screw you mate...XD I haven't collected my pay though...

Then it's Christmas...The oh so depressing time of the year for me...everyone would be out with someone except for lame ass me who can't seem to get anyone to go out with me as usual...but it seems some luck is finally on my side this Christmas...Zh called and asked for a night out...just for supper though...(well it's better than staying at home)...so Me, ZH, and Yoon Yi spent the nite together talking crap and laughing our heads off...whoopie...Then on the next day...I went to Linus' place to celeb Christmas along with Shi Hao and his friend, Voon Loong, Kenneth, ZH and Peng Theng...Voon Loong got high after a few sip of Daniel's special cocktail...but it's not like I fared any better...I had the whole cup of the cocktail...but apparently exhaustion + alcohol is a very bad idea...I didn't get high...I didn't get drunk...I just started feeling dizzy all of a sudden...-____- So I spent the night resting in Linus' place...

Third...It's my favorite arcade racing game...The local arcade has just received a new update for the game...which is pretty impressive...and I'm the 1st guy who gets to try it out...=D I just happen to be there on my day off from the part time job...and they were installing the updates right there when I decided to drop by for a few plays...woots...Overall the update is quite satisfying...difficulty has been ramped up so it actually requires some proper driving to get you through Story Mode...Ghosts are heaps faster...a new track for noobs to whore...and last but not least...the boost effect has been revamped and I have to say I'm loving it...I guess this means I'll be spending shitloads again...cuz it's still as addictive as ever! DX

Then it's my B'day...It's as quiet as ever but I guess that'll do...I sincerely appreciate those who have made time for me and paid for my tab in TGI Friday's =P...Kenneth and Linus also decided to drop by my place for lunch earlier on the day too...Had Nandos'...some good food that I haven't had in a while cuz of the part time job...all u get is Nasi Kandar there...then again I can't say I can blame them...we're getting them for free...: \ and by the way...nice wallet...thx Linus...=D

Finally...it's New Year's Eve...which is also probably the highlight of the year...I took WZ's advice and decided to make some plans for the night...A movie perhaps...though that is ultimately epic fail...din go through with the movie after all...But I also get an invite to join Joshua and gang for NYE celebration...I was never informed much about the details...but apparently we'll be going to The Curve...with that bit of info I managed to drag Zh and his butt out of his place to join me...And so it turns out...we were actually going to a club...My 1st thought is "damn...clubbing...this is gonna suck"...I always think of myself as a person that's not going to enjoy clubbing...but I was dead wrong lol...1st half an hour I was thinking "geez...how the heck did I ended up in here" with all the headbanging music that almost equals to a flashbang effect I'm nearing the point of having a migrain...But thankfully by the next half an hour I'm already quite used to the alcohol and smoke filled room, and of course the music too, which is quite good I might add...=D...by the third half an hour, I finished my green tea vodka and is already moving with the music...This is the 1st time I went to a club in my 20 years of life...and this is also the 1st time in god knows how long I actually danced to music...By the time we left the club I was sweating like hell but thankfully...still sober cuz I'm the fella who's going to be behind the wheel...again...another noteworthy thing though...I haven't seen so many chicks in 1 place b4...it's like a chicken farm! Definitely a sight for sore eyes...=D

That's all folks

Christmas time

Sigh...so Ju Anne has left the country now...went to the US of A to further her studies...and won't be back for a while either...who's next? Everyone's leaving around me..friends are getting less...that's the bad thing about choosing friends in terms of quality rather than quantity...-__-

But hey...at least Jono (my elder bro) is coming back from Aus soon...looking forward to spend some time with him again...But that rings another bell...Christmas...What the hell a I gonna do on Christmas??? I've probably been asking myself this for years now...and most of the time I'll end up getting dragged to church by my 2 brothers, family dinner, and....I have no idea what else...but non of it is what I wanted...for example...hanging out with friends (most have prior commitments), or going on a date (yea...you wish)...

Seriously man...what the heck...Christmas is supposed to be fun and all...but almost every freaking Christmas all I got is boredom...which I already have more than enough of...After my 2 weeks 'house arrest' cuz my the surgery on my ankle...nothing much has changed really...just that I can go out now...then again there's really not much people I can spend time with...like I said...I select my friends...and making friends ain't exactly easy to people like me...we have this handful and we are tankful for them cuz no one else seems to like to spend time to get to know people these days...sigh...

FYI I'm still pretty detached from my family...I have no idea why...I just don't like spending time with my family...wyh? I have no idea...I guess I'm just not the family kinda person...which is bad I guess...but whatever...this is me...I like how I am...so screw it...

Sighhhhhh....

Causality...cause and effect...every action will have an equal and opposite reaction...

These words are so crystal clear that they hardly require any explanation...so why?

Why is it that people don't realize what they're doing is wrong until they faced the consequences? Why is it that people only realize that they have been taking their loved ones for granted after they have lost them? Why is it that people only start to trust each other after all the love ran out?

Why?

"You keep knocking on the Devil's door long enough, sooner or later someone is going to answer you."

I hope this can be a wake up call for all those who's been reading my blog...please think twice before taking ANYONE for granted...one day they might just be out of your life for good...and you'll have nothing left but regret...

Surgery day...O_o

Well it's not really something to be celebrating about...But hey...I'm finally doing the surgery to remove the screws and plates in my left ankle over 3 years ago TOMORROW...O_o

Yea...that would be like...about 12 hours from now...and after that I'll probably be grounded for about 2 weeks...and no sports for at least 2 months...geez...oh well...

Did some shopping in low yat today to make my inevitable 2 weeks of immobility more comfortable...how exactly am I doing that? I bought myself a 19 inch LCD monitor to replace the old 15 inch...yes...a 15 inch...quite pathetic eh? and also some games to let me pass my time...red alert 3 and dead space...one buggy and the other not working...-__-

My luck just couldn't get any worse doesn't it? well at least the monitor is working like magic...and this huge shining screen in front of me somewhat feels weird after all the years looking at an ass small monitor...oh well...gotta start fasting at 8am tomorrow...no food no drinks...gah...well it's not like the 1st time I didn't had any food or drinks in 6 hours...
but wth...it's gonna happen anyway...and as far as I'm concerned...I'm ready...:\

That's all folks